Being the Spirit Actions of the Magicians of Tolpan
6:00pm May 16th 2010 - Sydney, Australia.
The Fire Tablet: Seniors of Venus and Saturn
We skried two Seniors of the Fire Tablet this time - each vision was a little shorter because of it, but still very detailed and interesting. I need to be more methodical with the questions I ask - I'm usually a bit dazed and confused - or perhaps staggered by the detail and richness of the imagery I'm getting and usually only ask what comes to mind. Will work on this for future visions.
The Vision of Aapdoce
The circle is filled with a ribbon of fire which races around like a flaming bird leaving a burning trail in its wake. The circle is then engulfed in fire - a pillar of fire in the centre. An angel of fire with fiery wings appears. It looks over its shoulder at me. I am pulled down into the floor by this angel. Its face fills my vision - flaming eyes, a face entirely of flame.
My view begins to widen, as though I am moving away from the angel's face. I see it's great wings rising either side of its head, and I begin to see that they are beating in flight. Above its head and between its beating wings I see the blazing red ball of the sun in a bleached sky behind it. I see that this giant figure is flying over a vast desert of rolling dunes. I am now standing far away from the angel but it still looms large in the sky like a massive bird of fire with the red sun behind it. It has two talons like a bird of prey - the right talon scoops up sand from the desert as it flies, crushes it tightly, and then scatters emeralds below. Its left talon is locked around a brilliant source of purest white light which I can't identify. I am seeing this all from a great distance, standing on a desert dune, but because the creature is so enormous I see it with great clarity.
I hear a great deep creaking sound. behind me and turn to see a colossal tree trunk reaching into the sky and out of sight. It has few branches and no top that I can discern, but is mostly brown bark as far as I can see. I hear a voice or perhaps I understand that this tree is "the link between the Tablets and the Sigillum Dei Aemeth; what you climb to ascend the Aethyrs." I see that this great angel is in flight between the Sun and this great tree, always travelling, seeming not to come nearer the tree.
I am now standing elsewhere in the desert between the Tree and the Sun, as the great talon from the flaming angel reaches down to grab the sands, crushes it and scatters six giant emeralds about me. As they fall I see a green humanoid figure flash up out of each one, before the giant emeralds shatter into piles of tiny green jewels, and the figures are pulled into the sands.
I think I am pulled into the sand with one of them. But I find myself in another square hall filled with white light, the centre occupied by a great Eye looking at me. This one is reddish and cat-like. I test it with the Fire invoking pentagram, which is again repeated, emblazoned in the air about the Eye. I ask if this is Aapdoce.
"I am he, I am the beginning of he, and I am he."
I ask: What is his nature?: Flight, follow, beautify, grace.
I ask: What is his scent?: Bergamot, basil
I ask for its symbol: A line traces down the floor towards me, and then splits into two perpendicular lines which curve up in a loop which then sweeps down and out. (again, I'll try to attach images of these)
What is is number?: 627 - or possibly 727 (this is not his measure but his number)
I ask what his wings denote: Grace
I ask what the emeralds denote: Followers (his words: :"They are of me, and I am he.")
I ask what the light in his left talon denotes: The Secret Fire. (the word Wisdom comes to me, but I think that was just my thoughts intruding)
I again don't have time to encounter all of the Followers, but I see the second - A - whose nature is "lost, alone, despair" (like a small lost animal, not knowing what it is looking for) and the third - P - whose nature is "many places, being spread" (like a flashing figure simultaneously before me, then in many other places int he room as well)
At this point I am drawn back to the Eye. I want to ask again about this Secret Fire, but all Aapdoce says is "The Secret Fire is within you. You hold the Secret Fire." We come back to the room and commence the next vision.
The Vision of Arinnap
I hear a rustling sound about the circle, and suddenly a great pressing mass of leaves surrounds the circle. It encroaches further and further, I see others in the circle being engulfed and enveloped by them, seemingly unaware. I feel these leaves flowing over my shoulders and surrounding me. I am completely enveloped by these leaves. I feel them shifting and quivering all about me and begin to feel scratches on my skin. I feel tiny twigs piercing my body, my head falls back as if trying to gasp for air from above, and just as I am about to realise the true pain of this the leaves melt away from me, leaving me staring at the night sky full of stars. I don't believe there is a moon - but I'm uncertain of this detail. I hear the ocean below - I am standing on a great, wild coastline of tall cliffs overlooking the sea, black in the night. There are ruins all around me, stone blocks broken, half toppled columns. In the distance behind me I see the looming black silhouette of mountains. From where I stand I see a huge cave mouth in the side of one of these distant hills with light issuing forth from inside - flickering slightly.
I start walking towards the mountains and this great cave, away from the sea. The ground is covered with thick wet grass - I think I am barefoot - and I sometimes pass the looming shadows of trees and copses. The ruins continue for a time and then they too are left behind me. The cave mouth in the side of the mountain looms large before me. It is a massive opening and I feel dwarfed by it. For a moment I see myself from above approaching this cave, a tiny figure, the light from inside spilling around me, illuminating bare brown earth, packed firm by many feet.
I walk into the cavern, and it quickly opens out into a great chamber of rock. Around the edges there are beautiful cave formations brightly lit. I can see no source for the light. From the earth in the centre of this great space leaves burst forth, multiplying and growing up and outwards until a vast figure of leaves and vines and greenery is formed. It stands over me. I trace the invoking pentagram of fire. It begins to repeat but falters on the final stroke - unable to connect it to its beginning. I trace a banishing pentagram of fire and the figure disintegrates. The floor of the cave is strewn with leaves and debris. I see a twig on the ground, and for a moment there is just that twig and a single leaf. I think I picked up the leaf and examined it - is it green or black? Or gold or silver?
On the wall at the back of this cavern is a black obsidian surface. I must climb the rock a bit to reach it. I stand before it, looking into it and there is suddenly flame all around me and I am pulled through a long tunnel of fire into a familiar sort of square room with a great Eye in its centre. This Eye is purest black at its heart, and is endlessly weeping thick, black oil which pools on the floor beneath it. The light filling the room is still brilliant white, but there are streaks of blackness throughout. The pentagram it traces back to me is made of black fire.
It gives me its symbol - a triangle blazes in the centre of the eye, a line bisects it from the top vertex and when this line reaches below the triangle it splits into two lines which curve up to meet the outer two vertices, splitting in two again when reaching them to make two small curls (image on its way)
I ask it its nature: Sorrow, despair, consolation, loss, solitude.
I ask it its scent: Ashes
I ask it its taste: Seared or charcoaled meat.
I ask what the leaf creature I encountered was: it was the P of its name (arinnaP). I understand that it could not complete the end of the pentagram because it IS its end, or something like that. On its own it cannot complete itself. (I reflect that perhaps the cave was the abode of P, just as the spirits of the letters of the other names resided in square rooms - and that the tunnel of fire I went through was me passing through the other rooms or caverns. I also reflect that below P on the Watchtower is the edge of the table - nothingness? A barren coastline of ruins falling into a wild night-sea?)
I have time to meet the second letter of Arinnap's name - R - whose nature is despair.
I am again standing on the cliff overlooking the sea, and I see a great ripple in the ocean below, as of some giant thing emerging from the earth beneath me into the water. A great black, slick shape erupts from the waves and into the air - I think there is an Eye at its head. It flies across the sky like a sinuous black ribbon before plunging back into the waves.
I am brought back by the bell, leaves surrounding me and lifting me up through the floor to the room.
DEBRIEF
AAPDOCE: Almost all of us saw emeralds. Another of us saw a bird of prey and had lots of fire. Another agreed with the scent of basil. Deserts were common (one of us had pyramids) Another saw a great tree in the desert as well I think. I am doing some examination of "Secret Fire" and the numbers I was given:
ASh NSThRH - 1016.
YVThRTh - what is redundant or overlapping
YShB BShBTh - "Dwelling in the Past"
YVThM - Yah is Perfect
YThVM - an orphan, a fatherless child
ChShBVN - combination, reasoning; judgment, penetration; pr.n. "Alliance"; a contriving, device; a contrivance or invention (for war); engines or instruments of war.
ChShChN - needful necessary
YRQVN - greenish-yellow (the color of decaying vegetation); paleness, ghastliness.
A'aRMVN - the plane tree
Notariqon - AN - 701AN - where?, whither?; ah now!, ah I pray thee!; to be nothing, naughty, wicked; to make effort, labor; to be exausted, to suffer; to earn by labour
AShTh - woman
MNHRVTh - riverbeds or channels, clefts or dens
ARK - to be arranged, adjusted; to stretch out, be long; to wear on; adapted, fit; long, enduring; delay
AN - 51 (lots of words, but here's a selection)
MChBH - concealment; a hiding place
LAK - to go (business or errand); to send or dispatch
GChM - to glow, to flame; pr.n. "Live Coal"
627 = AL NQMVTh (God of Avengings); MTzVTh HLVYM (the charge or duty of the Levites) 727 = MVTzAY BQR VA'aRB (the ports of morning and evening (east and west as connected with the rising and setting of the sun) ); NQVDH RASHVNH (the Primordial Point, ie Kether - Especially signifies the instant of emanation before which there was no revelation); MShNY A'aBRYHM (on both their sides); ZYQYM (burning arrow); A'aLYZIM (exalters)
ARINNAP: We were almost uniformly all quite disturbed by the vision of Arinnap. The colour balck was almost ubiquitous. Ash and the flavour of burnt meat also resonated. Another of us had a similarly Chthonic vision to mine - only with more tentacles. Others saw mountains at night, and a cliff by the sea. Most of the symbols we individually received contained triangles. Another of us also had a lot of leaves and a few others had the experience of physical pain and/or mortification. One or two had sexual elements to their visions, unlike me.
Interestingly, Soror V had an experience of mistakenly seeking the Saturnine experience when we had invoked the Venusian Senior, and vice-versa. The second spirit she encountered kept saying "Nogah La" - not Venus.